Archive for March, 2011

This is a (terrible) work of fiction

March 23, 2011 1 comment


  • Lithium,

    the lightest known metal,

    made of me a moon creature

    unearthly and lustrous

    with her soft white light

    mercury tracing the lifelines

  • I knew

    there were other worlds,

    that like Persephone I could fall through earth,

    and land

    where the light wouldn’t burn


    ascend angelic, bones glowing,

    radiant, into lucidity

  • You touch me; the mercury rises

    The poisoned blood jumps, riddled with silver fish

    And I fall

    And I rise

    Looking upward, I see myself

    Limbs set in points of light

    Pulsing, expanding, and slowly


    spinning away

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    Idle mind, melancholia

    March 23, 2011 4 comments

    Noting my inability to relax and embrace the melatonin supplement mellow, an acupuncturist friend of mine suggested that I might be more depressed than anxious. Well, I certainly don’t feel anxious. I also certainly don’t feel particularly motivated about life.

    Rhetorical question #1: How much of this is situational, and how much is just me?

    I do not feel particularly sad, and I do indulge in small pleasures (reading books, eating curries, listening to podcasts – woo!). That said, I tend toward apathy and an incapacity to feel joy or love. And really, nothing seems to touch that. L-tyrosine, a bit. Fish oil, occasionally. And while some turn to religion, I have no such faith. And unfortunately, you can’t force faith.

    Rhetorical question #2: Am I truly so different from everyone else?

    I have a history of trichotillomania and nail-biting, so perhaps dumping more serotonin derivatives into my brainpan (d’oh! inaccurate pun!) is the last thing I should be doing. Being not especially motivated and not especially smart, I’m thinking that perhaps it’s my dopamine circuits that are, as the scientists say, “wonky.”

    Dopamine seems to be involved in the pleasure-anticipation-reward pathways. How do we define pleasure, anticipation, and reward? They are three distinct situations/states, but there could be some overlap.

    And how closely related are the states of anticipation and hope?

    A brief culinary interlude: Coconut Plantains

    March 5, 2011 Leave a comment

    Hey all! This is the fast and loose “recipe” every paleo/primal/evolutionary whatever, etc. follower has discovered independently when faced with plantains. I’m just setting it down here so I know I can find it later.

    You can substitute bananas for plantains. Green, unripe bananas would probably have a nutritional profile closer to that of plantains, but there’s no need to limit yourself. Go bananas.

    I profusely apologize for that last joke.

    Coconut Plantains

    Serves: However many people feel full after eating it. I usually manage to eat half a plantain as a savory side dish, but I’m perfectly capable of eating the other half as dessert.

    Cook time: A bunch of minutes, or so


    • 1 plantain
    • 2 tsp coconut oil
    • At least 1/4 a cup of coconut milk (or, as much as you like)
    • Pinch of salt
    • Flavoring of your choice (vanilla for a dessert or a sweet snack, but curry or whatever you like for a savory side dish)


    • Heat the coconut oil in a pan over medium heat
    • Peel and chop the plantain (I usually slice it in half lengthwise, then chop those into short chunks)
    • When the oil is hot and liquid in the pan, add the plantain chunks so they cover the bottom of the pan and do not overlay one another. After about a minute, start stirring them lackadaisically with a wooden spoon so they cook evenly on all sides.
    • In a few minutes, the plantains will begin to turn a deep golden color. When they are golden on all sides, add the coconut milk, salt, and flavoring of your choice and lower (or turn off) the heat.
    • Continue to stir until the coconut-plantain mixture reaches the consistency you like (more time for a stickier, less liquid consistency, less time for a soupier texture)
    • Enjoy hot or cold.
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